A tanka series on brants and perception and maybe more, in the wonderful River Heron Review
gulls overhead
this poem, a five-tanka series with head-note, published today on Trouvaille Review
seeking shells, I very nearly didn’t see the pellet, just a baby’s fist, a clutch of life’s leftovers
seeking shells, I very nearly didn’t see the pellet, just a baby’s fist, a clutch of life’s leftovers
almost unnoticed
bundle of fishbones and scales
bound without order
or sense of what they had been
living before snatched from wave
lying carelessly
dry as the sand bones and scales
they had given form
to the slippery fish but now
unneeded by life transformed
once elegant sleek
fluid as the formless waves
until suddenly
snatched by one yet more fluid
despite her taloned angles
can it be returned
what the osprey quick-striking
stole from the wavecrest
could separated bones scales
with patience be assembled
or is it her dive
headfirst and what she catches
in me watching her
great-winged bird bold against the sky
I can’t see her beautyless
from ‘starboard blueboard’ again
39.
restless, unable to sleep one still summer night long ago after rain, a boy copied out a poem written in the afternoon, thinking to bring it to a yellow-haired girl’s house. he rode there through the quiet streets, clouds breaking up to let the stars watch him go. her house was dark. he left his bicycle under a tree by the street and quickly crossed the big yard to the porch steps. as he started up, the wood creaked under his bare feet, and he paused, but then went on, careless of whom he woke, going to her bicycle, to leave the poem in her basket.
how he didn’t hear the door open he didn’t know, but when he turned, a yellow-haired girl was standing there, watching him. she said, another poem for me?
when he nodded, she walked over and took the folded paper from her basket. she held it, looking at it, unfolded, a moment, before looking again at the boy. he saw her in a way he had never seen anything, as though every moment they had ever spent together, every thought he’d ever had of her, was there, on that porch, alive in the night, and all through his growing body.
unable to hold himself back, he spoke these verses to her
black as egrets are white as cloudless midday sky is deep fish crows come to a heartcurved treetop wild as my thoughts in flight with you
From ‘starboard blue board’
26.
lying in his rocking garvey one summer evening long ago, a boy watched how overhead a pair of young herring gulls flew together, arcing up, spinning as though on wingtip, cartwheeling in the air.
only seeing the gray birds did he realize he had been sleeping, how long he did not know. the sky beyond them was deep still blue, but then, they were in the sky, so the blue was not beyond them at all. he heard the water lapping and kissing the hull all around him, and he watched as moment by moment the two birds, young, tireless in their play over him, glowed more and more gold. every moment everything changed — the gulls’ gold deepened and the blue darkened and the water’s kisses kept on, ceaseless. he felt the weight of his body, its stillness and yet all the movement within, breath and blood and awareness. too many things were happening. he let it all go and watched the gulls.
only when the light was finally gone and it seemed he was alone did he sit up, get his notebook and the pen a yellow-haired girl had given him, and write these verses
see how evening sun
turns everything even gulls
graywinged and playing
over the still water gold
end of day no end at all
where the gulls had flown off to he did not know, or if they had at all. he still saw them, and wrote again
two gulls turned evening
gold as they gray play in flight
over the still bay
the setting sun takes her time
herself too saturated
as he wrote, he felt, the halves of the pen’s nib open like wings folded on a gull’s back, and the flow of the ink, its flight on the page, even in the darkness, in the stillness of the vast sky shared with the bay around him. he wrote yet again, not to hold something, but to let it go
in sunset flightdance
two fineformed gray gulls turn gold
night’s coming then day
again again and again
these gulls even gold still gulls
from ‘starboard blueboard’
33.
a boy woke suddenly one midnight long ago. he felt the bed holding him rocking the way his patched old garvey rocked on the bay, or was it a slower, bigger rolling, the one he felt out beyond the breakers, where he went for the peace to be found there.
in the pale moonlight he wrote these verses on the first blank page he found in his notebook
in this still darkness a sudden unexpected scent of ocean salt no holding back then these waves let them take me out to sea
the nest found
the nest found lying in the grass it seemed at first nothing but a ball of grass and birch bark white somehow gathered collected rolled together but of course such things do they often happen without help and this not happenstance but a nest fallen woven with care with if it’s not bold to say love and hope a nest for eggs for lives to begin and grow and even such a one as this delicate and soft and now lost to all but me for what it still may hold I will not let it go
egret taking wing
Is it the effort floats the grace
Not like the muttering mallards
who share the marsh pool
with the white —
Them — they open their wings
open and beating they’re gone
the water the morning left behind
But you — how your legs
flex — how you longnecked
draw arrowhead back
as though to strike —
how your wings open feathers
how spread all whiteness
white even in the brown
the water that would hold you fast —
All wings and legs — white
White altogether too white to be
as all together
all at once
yet slow
your legs push to straight
your neck releases arrowhead
skyward as your wings
your white wings gather
the instant —
And slow — air — breath — vision —
yes even the seeing slow as your wings
slow stroke by stroke
against the songfilled air
lift you O to flight —
Effort — yes slowed to visibility
that we should know
how grace is gained
green-winged teals
Not hiding but almost
hidden among the reeds
slender and brown
around the edge
where marsh gives way
to water — gray —
dull — the day drowsy
gray too the one — his body
though not dull — alive
his blackeyed head brown
banded green as spring
The other
a bit of earth of soil — ripe
These two the only birds
yet — disinterested they seem
one to the other
her dabbling while he
heedless — modest —
as though needing nothing
more than his own grace
Then suddenly Sun
uncalled
bursts through clouds
in downpour — enchanting
in an instant
this secret pond this pair
who kept so quiet there — unseen
They must feel it — the light
all around alive — for they rise —
together rise modesty cast aside
on wings aflutter —
careless — sunsoaked —
And there in motion bared
their secret their bond
the spread of feathers shared —
numinous — O green
It’s an instant only —
Clouds close fast
veiling sun — wings close too
modest —
and calm again
all around life quiets —
These two —
teals —
They work the marshedge
as though once again
separate —
indifferent —
mere dabblers —
As though once beheld
that green — theirs
could be unseen
swans
Look — two swans white
pass close to shore
White as mountain peaks
White as snow
As sunbloom cloud
everblossoming in blue
White as the distance between
Silent and still they pass
Necks eloquent in their curve
and the lush white fullness
of bodies held chaste
Ecstatic behind featherblade wings
O they pass but motionless
Water sky and all
the world it is
that moves by them
Their serenity white
ecstasy still and silent
They pass unmoving — two
but in reflection
one in the other — one
which is neither one nor two
but a stillness white
a holding mute on the water
Watch — they don’t take wing
already beyond reach of all
but the flight of longing
that would have them simply beautiful
Look — they pass
Yet see how still they remain
